But to me, for the most part, it’s all I’ve known for a majority of my very short career. I’ve worked a series of contracts before my business fully took off, but have never held a full-time position at a traditional 9–5.
When I couldn’t find the work I felt would fulfill me, I decided to instead create the work that would for myself.
I’ve also believe that the most rewarding decisions in life are made out of 50% excitement and 50% fear.
While that was a reality ever present as I started my company straight out of school, I feel the percentage of fear may have been the over-arching motivator for creating my business.
And, to be frank, that’s not exactly as “cool” or “impressive” as people make it out to be.
I was scared. That was the foundation I used to build my successful company, which is turning 3-years-old this summer.
Fear-based decision-making simply isn’t as glamorous as people make it seem.
I was afraid of becoming stagnant and complacent.
Three weeks into my mandatory work term for my PR program, just before embarking into the career-world, I was sitting at my desk in the marketing agency and looked up from my laptop for a moment. An unsettling feeling started to creep up from the pit of my stomach to the top of my head.
They were a fabulous agency to work for, and I really enjoyed working there while I did. At the same time, I believe I was always meant to work for myself.
I had uncomfortable visions of being a worker bee for the rest of my life. Of working to create someone else’s dream, while I patiently waited 5-10 years until I could be promoted to a manager.
That thought settled, like a hard brick, at the bottom of my gut.
And it terrified me.
I was afraid of rejection.
I don't enjoy interviews. I don't enjoy competing against other people in general. Can't we all support one another and all come out on top?
Which is ironic, because entrepreneurship is loaded with rejection and competition. The difference is, when I‘m the boss, I get to call the shots.
So whether I’m rejected or “fail” in some way, the full responsibility weighs solely on me. There’s something about holding that weight on my shoulders which makes rejection, oddly enough, more bearable.
I was afraid of not being in control.
Over all else, I value my freedom and flexibility. Waking up every new day and knowing that I, the Boss Lady, get to call the shots on what I do on any given day is the best feeling.
Of course, that doesn’t mean I slack off and watch Friends on Netflix all day long.
It means I’ve got my nose to the concrete and I’m grinding away to tackle client projects and clock those hours to be able to pay my mortgage each month.
But even knowing that I can take the day off, if I need it — that I can take the day off if necessary, with no problem, gives me ease of mind.
I take less sick days and vacation days now that I’m an entrepreneur than any other job I’ve had, contracts or otherwise. I also work a lot of public holidays, aside from Christmas or New Years. Because if I don’t work, I don’t make money.
And my bills still need to be paid, you know?
That said, I don’t have to ask permission for time off. My biggest struggle instead is giving myself permission to take a breather.
I don’t believe I’m courageous in starting my business— for me personally, it would take more courage to walk into a 9–5 for the rest of my career than it does to run my own hustle, risks and all taken into account.
A traditional 9–5 isn't where I belong.
That said, it’s also my backup plan in case my business goes south. But it’s a back-up for a reason. Paying my bills and supporting my family is what matters most to me. Having a career which fulfills me on a deep level comes second.
I’m just lucky to able to receive both of these elements all wrapped up into one package through my social media and copywriting company.
Bravery is interesting, because its definition is entirely subjective.
To one person, who looks at me and wishes they too could start their own business but are too scared to make that massive leap, I may be perceived as brave.
But to me, it wasn’t a matter of bravery — it was a matter of doing the thing which spoke most to the integrity of who I am. Business owners are fairly common in my family — entrepreneurship is ingrained in my DNA and flows through my veins.
Becoming an entrepreneur wasn’t brave of me — it was simply answering the call of what I felt I was meant to be doing.
It was prompted initially by the fear of not wanting to be trapped in a career which did not fit with who I am and what I feel most passionate about doing.
That doesn’t sound at all like my personal definition of bravery. And so for that reason, I don’t consider myself brave for starting my business.
I consider myself as being true to who I am, and using the strengths which come naturally to me in the most effective ways possible
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